This chapter is based
off the lyrics of the song Kiss Me by Charlie Puth. Some of the lyrics
are out of order and some of the words are different but that was just
for the story to make sense and have a good ending! 😉
I should have told you how I really feel a little in advance…
Charlie looked at your
smiling face. Your beautiful smiling face, he added in his mind. He
loved you. You loved him too, but, just as friends. He loved you more
than that. More than friends. That’s what he wanted. But you just wanted
to be friends. Charlie sighed. You looked up at him. “What’s wrong?”
you asked. “Nothing.” he lied. He hated lying to you, but it had to be
done. You frowned. “Tell me.” you said.
Then I would’ve had some time to go and work it out, I think I lost my chance…
Charlie bit his lip. “I
don’t think you’d understand.” You cocked your head to one side. “But
I’d listen.” you told him. You put your hand on his cheek. “Just tell
me.” you said, gently. He shook his head. “I can’t. It’s too late to
tell you. I lost my chance.”
For the last three
years I just hid it so well hoping that you’d figure it out because I
never could tell it straight to your face…
“What do you mean it’s
too late?” you were confused. “It’s never too late.” Charlie sighed. He
had hidden his feelings for so long. But he wasn’t sure he could hide
Never have I ever woken up i a cold hard sweat from a dream wondering if you’d ever say goodbye, if I didn’t say it first…
“Can’t I have a private
life!?” Charlie exclaimed. You were shocked by his loud voice. “Calm
down. I didn’t mean it like-” Charlie got up off the sofa. “No Y/N,” he
said. “It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize.” He walked to the bedroom
and put his hand on the doorknob. “I just need some time. Alone.” And
with that he disappeared, leaving you sitting on the couch, drowning in
No. No more nights…
Charlie stared up at the
ceiling. He heard you knock on the door. “Charlie…” you said. “I-I’m
going home now. Is that okay?” Charlie rolled over to face the door.
“That’s fine.” he said, trying to keep his voice steady and not let it
tremble with the tears that were on his cheeks. “Okay, um. Well, bye.”
With that you were gone. As soon as the door closed, Charlie let the
tears flow out steadily. He couldn’t sleep when he was feeling like
this. He got out of bed, wiped away the tears and went out into the
bright lights of the city.
Drinking away my loneliness and up till 2 am…
The bar called out his
name. Charlie went inside and ordered a drink. While he waited for it to
be made, he thought about you. You and your beautiful curls that he
loved to pull and let spring back into the same curly shape and make you
giggle. You and your adorable little nose that he loved to kiss when
you were sad. You and your smile that could make even
snakes smile back. Charlie sighed. He couldn’t stop thinking about you.
But when his drink finally came, he didn’t think about anything.
No more waiting. Pacing round the bar hoping that you might walk in…
Charlie kept looking at the door, hoping and praying that you would walk in. Then he would tell you how he really felt. He
would tell you that he loved you, but not friend love. He would tell
you that he thought you were beautiful, but just because he was being
nice cause you were friends. He would tell you what he wanted.
It was 2 am. Charlie had finally figured that you weren’t coming. He
sighed an headed for the door. He kept his head down. Suddenly, he felt
an impact and the next thing he knew he was on top of someone. He
scrambled up and extended his hand. “I’m so sorry I-” he froze. “Y/N?”
You were sobbing on the
floor. When you heard your name, you looked up. You gasped. “Charlie!”
You got up quickly and wiped your tears away, leaving mascara smudges on
your cheeks. “Um, I didn’t know you were gonna be here. I can go if
you-” Charlie grabbed your arm. “I love you!” He blurted out. You looked
at him, eyes shining with tears. “What?” you said. Charlie took a deep
breath. “I’m done playing these games.” He told you. You stared at him.
“I can’t believe what I’m about to say.” He opened his eyes you saw they
were filled with tears. “I won’t tell you goodbye with my love left
behind. Kiss me before I f***ing lose my mind.” The tears rolled down
Charlie’s cheeks as you stared at him. You were frozen. You couldn’t
move. You couldn’t speak. “Y/N…” Charlie said after a long pause. “I
love you. I don’t want to just be friends. I want to be….” he choked
on a sob. “More.” You couldn’t fight it anymore. You burst out in tears.
Charlie hugged you to his chest which you soaked with long overdue
tears. “I do too!” You sobbed. “I don’t want to just be friends! I love
you too! I couldn’t tell you because I thought all you wanted was to be
friends and not anything more. I want to be more!” Charlie peeled you
off him. You sniffed and calmed down mostly but you couldn’t stop a few
stray tears from escaping down your red cheeks. “So…” Charlie said.
“Are you gonna f***ing kiss me or not?” He grinned through his tears.
You smiled back. You tackled him to the ground and pressed your lips
against his. You didn’t pull apart for a long time, and didn’t want to
either. You were both getting…
What you really wanted.